Are they tears that stain the grass in the morning?
Betrayal of a night long and cold?
Why the sparkle when morning sun rises?
Can sorrow and anguish really beauty hold?
How much time to transform pain?
Can tears become diamonds of worth?
Is there no shortcut to life and freedom
without the pain and struggle of birth?
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Showing posts with label worth. Show all posts
Sunday, April 28, 2013
Friday, March 8, 2013
Well inside
Hot sun. Long walk. Sore heart.
"May I
have a drink?"
Why in the
world is he talking to me. "Oh uh... Just curious, why are you asking me?
I mean I'm what some of you refer to as a dog, and even worse, I'm a woman.
Your kind doesn't usually like to have anything to do with my kind."
"If you
knew God and the person talking to you, you would have asked him to give you a
drink. And you would have gotten water like you can't find anywhere else.
Living water."
"Um
pardon me sir, but you forgot to bring anything to get the water out with. I
mean I can understand if you've never been here before, then you wouldn't know
that this well is really deep. I still haven't found the bottom of it. And where do
you propose to get water better than this? This is Jacob's well. Jacob, the
great patriarch, the one who saw angels and spoke to God. I guess maybe that's
one reason I still come here. I mean of course I need water. Can't live without
it. But I guess, too, I figure if Jacob stood here once up on a time maybe his
God stood here too and left some sort of holiness here somehow. Maybe I hope
that someday I'll reach the bottom of this well and find Him, at least a
lingering fragment...
Have you
ever heard about Jacob? Well of course you have. So I guess you don't need me
to tell you, if you think your bigger and better then Jacob, there's some
people around here who might laugh. Jacob's pretty respected and revered."
"Oh
daughter, you don't have to come to Jacob's well to be satisfied. Haven't you
found that you keep having to come? It's never enough? You can't live off a Jacob's
God. But if you would take and drink of the water I have to offer, it would
satisfy truly. It would become your own well inside. A well by which a God who
wants to be your God would love to rest and talk with you."
"...I'd
like that. Would you give me this water so I don't have to come here
anymore?"
"Go and
bring your husband."
"Um...
I don't have one."
"I
know."
Head down in
shameful silence.
"This
well isn't the only place you've sought fulfillment. All five husbands have
left you. Broken and empty still. But even though you know they hold no promise
you find yourself stuck in this cycle, with self-worth so low now you let men use you without commitment."
"You
know, not even some of the people in town know as much as you just told me. I
take back what I said earlier. Maybe you do rank as high as Jacob.
And I've been wondering about something for a long time. I mean, I'll confess,
even though it's not popular with everyone these days, I am searching for God.
And since you seem to know something about Him, could you tell me, my ancestors
worshiped there on that mountain. But your people say God is to be found in the
temple at Jerusalem. Who's right?"
"Let me
let you in on something. Pretty soon you won't find God in this mountain or at
the temple in Jerusalem. You all don't even know what you're worshiping. We do.
Salvation will come from the Jews. But let me tell you, an event is about to
happen that will shatter the way everyone who is really finding God worships. An event that will shift the whole picture of
God. An event that will show what He is really like. And what He really thinks
of you. God doesn't want people to worship Him as a thing or as a place. Not as some God who shadowed the life of a
man now dead, but as He is in truth...a real present reality. He wants worship
from your heart. He wants one on one relationship. Not between Himself and a mass of
people. Not as a God who found a select few from the past as worthy of His
blessing. But as a God who finds each and every soul a place He longs to
linger. Even you, the dog woman. He wants the worship in your heart."
"Hmm...
I'm not sure I understand all you just said. But I know one event everyone, and
I'll admit even I am looking forward to is the coming of the Promised One, the
Messiah. He's supposed to be able to explain everything. I know it's probably too much to hope for, but I hope to meet
Him..."
"You
have. I am that event. Oh daughter, let me dig in the soil of your soul. A well
deep and pure and sweet. A well inside. And let me fill it."
Running. Free.
"You've
got to come. He's here. It's got to be Him. He talked to me like He knew me
through and through. To me! And now there's a well inside. I can't hold it
in."
Two days
later.
....
"Thank you.
We believe too. We're now drinking our fill, not out of your well, but from the
one He dug. The well inside."
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
So loved
I am so loved.
I am so unworthy of this love.
Yet He loves me still.
I am not loved because I deserve it, but because He deserves to have what He shed His own blood to purchase and redeem. I am ransomed with the most precious of currency. The villain set the ransom as high as he could see. He had the opportunity to name his price for the souls of the Kings treasure, and he set his sights on the life of the Life Giver. Did he reckon that I would not be considered worth that infinite value? He reckoned wrong. For the Prince of the kings of the earth stepped forward and pledged to pay the ransom. Did he hope that in the attempt the Prince would fail and he would gain not only the life of the Prince but hold still the life of the treasure upon whom he could carry out his hellish plans? He hoped in vain. Though for a while he held Life in his death grip, through the darkest night when hope slept in cold stillness, his triumph was not to endure. For when the morning came, the Prince broke the chains and rose up from the bowels of the earth victor.
This world is filled with touching love stories. Grand tales of brave acts for treasured loves. But they are nothing. They do not begin to reach the height of the love of my Prince for me. I know me. I know the depths of this sinful heart. And He knows it even better. Yet He came after me anyway. And He does again and again. He calls me His treasure.
Treasure.
To think of myself as anything less...it would require pronouncing the one who fought to the death and poured out His very blood as payment for me, a liar. In the face of such love what can I say? I am speechless. I am broken. All I can do is let Him love me. And that is all He wants.
Let me love you. Let my love transform you. I see you not as you are, but as what my love can make you. You are mine. And I delight to call you such. I am not ashamed of you. You are my treasure. And I love you.
He calls me His own. And I may call Him mine. And He has gone, but He will return. His one desire, to have me with Him where He is. He counts the days. Days unknown. Anticipating the day. The day on which He will come to take me, His treasure...home.
Here He comes
Riding on a white horse
To pull me out from the midst of my enemy
My faithful one
Here He comes
To vanquish His enemies
Fighting with a fierce love
A love stronger than death
My true one
Soft in the stillness of night
Gentle and quiet
His voice assured me again
Child I’m not finished yet
Let your heart rest
I won’t let you slip through my fingers
He holds me
Oh He holds me so closely
I am His
And by His grace He is mine
No power can loosen His grip on me
I’m so tightly held by His mighty love
Here He comes
Riding on a white horse
To pull me out from the midst of my enemy
My faithful one
Here He comes
To vanquish His enemies
Fighting with a fierce love
A love stronger than death
My true one
*Here He Comes
By: Melissa Otto
Album: Blue Sky
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Wednesday, February 6, 2013
His own
...unto Him that loved us, and washed us from our sins in His own blood...
His own blood...
It's not just animal blood.
No. It's His. His very own.
That struck me for whatever reason. Maybe it's how the narrator says that phrase on my audio Bible.
Narrator? What about John?
This isn't a second hand tale. This is the man's best friend telling me.
"I know this to be a fact. I know where that stuff came from. My friend is the one who saved you and made you clean again. I watched it spill out of Him. And He didn't use a generic brand. It was the real stuff...
I'm telling you. He loves you."
Loves me.
Washed. Clean.
Clean. That's a good feeling you know.
...loved us, and washed us...in His own blood...
His own blood...
It's not just animal blood.
No. It's His. His very own.
That struck me for whatever reason. Maybe it's how the narrator says that phrase on my audio Bible.
Narrator? What about John?
This isn't a second hand tale. This is the man's best friend telling me.
"I know this to be a fact. I know where that stuff came from. My friend is the one who saved you and made you clean again. I watched it spill out of Him. And He didn't use a generic brand. It was the real stuff...
I'm telling you. He loves you."
Loves me.
Washed. Clean.
Clean. That's a good feeling you know.
...loved us, and washed us...in His own blood...
Thursday, April 26, 2012
Look who He invited...
Did you ever connect who the VIP were at Jesus Last Supper? A bunch of pretty pathetic characters
arguing.
prideful.
oblivious.
hmm...
Maybe I have a chance?
I write this blog not as the result of a theological session of thought. But after coming out of a deep dark hole. One I've found myself in more times than I want to admit. Honestly I'd be embarrassed to let you see the far too often real me. Just please don't look at all. Keep your gaze on Him.
But back to supper.
I found the following video as a result of reading through old emails from a very close friend. Amazing how God can use someone to still get to you who isn't even there at the time.
So He thinks that of me too? I guess I need to stop finding a different place to lay my sleeping bag when I feel rotten.
But would He have invited me to supper?
Rev 3:20
Ya. I guess He would.
arguing.
prideful.
oblivious.
hmm...
Maybe I have a chance?
I write this blog not as the result of a theological session of thought. But after coming out of a deep dark hole. One I've found myself in more times than I want to admit. Honestly I'd be embarrassed to let you see the far too often real me. Just please don't look at all. Keep your gaze on Him.
But back to supper.
I found the following video as a result of reading through old emails from a very close friend. Amazing how God can use someone to still get to you who isn't even there at the time.
So He thinks that of me too? I guess I need to stop finding a different place to lay my sleeping bag when I feel rotten.
But would He have invited me to supper?
Rev 3:20
Ya. I guess He would.
P.S. If you need a follow up? watch this one.
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Saturday, March 10, 2012
My dream...
The following video has put more fuel in my passion and I hope someday there will be wind under my wings. If there was an opportunity to go and work for a year in this school I would jump on it! I emailed Asian Aid and asked if they ever needed volunteers. They said they are not set up for that right now, but if it ever became a need they would remember me. I'll be sure to keep tabs.
India has held a special place in my heart ever since I was a little girl. Every time I would watch Maranatha Mission Stories with Dick Dirkson about India I would have to fight tears. I wanted to go so bad.
Children also hold a special place in my heart. I want them to know they are valued, precious, loved, and created by a God who knows their name and can speak their language...yes, even if it's sign language.
To see these two things, India and children, linked to sign language, which also has held a special place in my heart since childhood and even more recently...it has all sent my mind soaring. I picture myself there...someday.
Please, if you can spare a few pleasures in life to help the children of Asian Aid or any organization like this, do it! What can we live without to gives these children a chance at life...and a chance at eternity!
For $23/month you can give a child the chance to go to school and get an education that could transform their future.
For only $7 more ($30/month) you can give them a meal while they are at school. For some children this is the only meal they will get all day. (Remind me again how many meals you ate just yesterday?)
For only $5 more ($35/month) more your sponsored child can live at the school where they will have meals every day, clean clothes to wear, and a clean bed to sleep in at night. If they have a suitable home to return to they visit their family on the holidays.
For just an extra $10 ($45/month) you can sponsor a orphaned, deaf, blind, or college student. These children may not even have parents any more. Your small sacrifice gives them not only food, clothes, and unique education, it gives them a home which is another way to spell love. A place where they learn about Jesus.
How far would $45 get you? Less than one tank of gas? A few groceries? A pair of shoes?
How far will $45 get her? Very likely...all the way to heaven. Would you be willing to help her get there and where your shoes a little longer? Please?
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